Living with a Broken Heart (All I Want)

So recently, a friend asked me "How do you get over things so fast?" She mentioned a previous moment, and then noted that it was kinda happening again. I thought about it and I realized why and responded, "Because I live with a broken heart". Now Before anyone says, "Simi, you're being an over-the-top emo again", hear me out for a second. I've grown up nineteen years with a father that I feel never truly loved me. Wrap your head around that, Someone consistently telling you that respecting them was a necessity because "respect isn't a two-way street" and never getting that reciprocated. That sucked getting that on top of cruel abuse.
For years I have dated girls, and when the relationship was over both parties were hurt and bad, when I realized I had played a part in their pain I did whatever I could do to reform. But when that Reform came I found the amount of times I'd treated them like a Lady I'd find them off with some douche-bag and I'd be back in the oh-so-familiar friend-zone. Sound Familiar guys? To live with a broken heart isn't as bad as you all may think. Many of you live with broken appliances, broken cars, broken computers etc. These things aren't completely broken and still function in a manner that lets you get the job done. Until recently, My family was constantly using this broken iMac from, like, 2006 and it was long gone already. It served its purpose until the end. My heart is still capable of producing emotion, affection, and love, It just needs repair. but I, like the rest of America don't know how to fix what needs repairs, so I wait until I can find someone that does know how to repair it. I swear that I may have had only ONE mature relationship that ended well, No offense to anyone I had dated before I was seventeen. I don't think I was Mature enough before then anyways.
I feel like this song should be dedicated to all who will take the time to read this blog entry, or even find it at a later date. They wrote this song as a big thank you note to all those who helped them on their way up to prominence and a "F@#$ you" to those who attempted the opposite. I hope to get to that spot one day. So this is Dedicated to all of you Pushing me along the way as I chase my dreams, And Dedicated to all those who try to stand in my way.
I've long searched for inspiration to start writing music again, and I think I have found it.